packing. packing. thinking. planning. imagining. anticipating. learning. questioning. loving. reaching. letting go. strengthening. crying. praying. wanting. seeking. hoping. stretching. loving. introducing. transforming. smiling. soaking. hating. resting. packing.

why words alone, separated by flooding periods? some times it's so much that that expression of openness in thought and reference is the only thing lending itself to truth. of the moment. these questions: what am i spending the most time with here? what is most worthy, quintessential to letting love, appreciating those individuals and beautifully letting go? in living, why is what takes precedence in energy and self that which is most menial, least fundamental and essential? ...just a matter of time being the essence? in relation to what? living in these moments; they feel like they're mine, God's. yet, doubt. fear.

i have so much to be thankful for. gratefulness takes work. work through and into each passing moment. a choice. to be happy. and to be love.

a wise old friend said today, "what doesn't kill us makes us stronger." these words mean more than i have eyes to see. these times. moments. this life. so great and beautiful.

two weeks from today. tuesday. in a hotel room in phillyPA with some crazy, new awesome people and -ness. and life-ness. wowzers.

i can't wait to go hold me some o' my babies. sing songs and play games. learn somethin'. dreams into reality. learning some thing too, about that deep road's winding way these days.

love to so much. rest knowing i've work. to share in more gratefulness than i was in today. share in more in this moment than i was in the last. the moon was beaming this night - my sister.
"pay close attention." --- resounding in all of this. thanks to the life.
and all the love. to give and be given. circle.
rest.

-me